Update - Just One Baby

I had my third ultrasound today and, unfortunately, Baby B has passed away. At the last ultrasound, he measured 6 weeks and 1 day. Today, he measured just 6 weeks and 2 days so it appears he passed away the very next day. Baby A looks very good though. He is measuring 8 weeks and 2 days and as it has been 8 weeks and 2 days since my last menstrual cycle, that is perfect. He also had a good heartbeat. I'm calling them both hes, but I really don't have a feeling one way or the other.

Pic of Baby A:

Because Baby B is still present and hasn't degenerated, there is a slight chance he could affect the well-being of Baby A. As such, I'm still classified as a high-risk pregnancy and will still be seeing the specialist. He works with women having singletons, as well, so if I like him, I can have him as my doctor throughout the pregnancy. The nurse practitioner that did the exam today was extremely nice and she spoke highly of him.

I was not overwhelmed with sadness when I learned Baby B had passed. I knew it was a possibility and am still very happy and grateful that Baby A is doing well. Although I am a bit ashamed to admit it, I felt a moment of relief because no matter what it would have been a lot harder to care for two newborns at the same time. J is a bit sadder than I am. He was looking forward to having two that could grow up together and keep each other entertained.

I thought it would be nice to include a poem or meaningful quote in this entry, but I couldn't find anything online that I loved and really spoke to me. I was a Creative Writing major in college and so I jotted down a quick poem of my own.

Pic of Baby B:I like to think you would have had
A contagious, glowing smile,
Known there were times for somberness,
But found laughter more your style.

I imagine you’d have outwitted me
On more than one occasion,
And I’d have bragged to everyone
Of your talents most amazing.

And though I’ll never hold you, dear,
I can still feel you in my arms,
And dream of your accomplishments,
Your beauty and your charms.

I know somewhere your spirit lives,
I like to think you're near,
And that my dreams and whispered love
Are something that you hear.