"No way, YOU'RE an attorney?"

Obviously, I'm doing something wrong (or maybe something right), because people always seem taken aback when I tell them I'm an attorney. I had reason to mention it to my RE this morning and I got the above reaction. Apparently, she was surprised because I don't "seem like [I'm] under a lot of stress." I should have invited her over to hold me at night while I'm curled up in a ball rocking back and forth crying "oh god, oh god" every few seconds.

I had an ultrasound this morning where she saw one, maybe three maturing follicles. In case you haven't been studying up on your fertility, when follicles are mature, they release an egg and then the follicle becomes a corpus luteam which releases hormones to facilitate conception and implantation. She said that one is 14 mm and two are 12 mm, they all may continue to mature or the smaller ones may recede leaving only the larger follicle. She is going to do another ultrasound on Sunday morning, and the tentative scheduled is for me to administer the Ovidrel shot on Sunday night for an IUI on Tuesday.

I think that after a doctors appointment, they should allow you use of their computer so you can research the information you've been given. You should then be allowed to meet with the doctor again for clarification. It didn't dawn on me to ask if I wanted three mature follicles or if that was bad until I was in my car driving away. On the way to my office, I kept thinking that three mature follicles would mean three babies. If there was ever a proper time to use the "f" word, I think it would be if you found out you were having triplets. I was in my car debating in my head whether I would want to do an IUI if it meant triplets. I want to be a Mom really badly, but do I want to be a Mom THAT badly?

I've since done some research and have read that for a successful IUI, you would ideally want three to four mature follicles, but that you can get pregnant with just one. I still have lots of questions so I'll be doing some more research on this, and I'll be sure to ask my doctor on Sunday.

I did get some good news today. I thought I was going to have to foot the bill 100% for all of this. I spoke with the benefits coordinator today and learned my insurance covers 50%. The ultrasounds are only $44.53! And the IUI with sperm washing is only $61.79. I am so happy I could burst.

Keep thinking those good thoughts for me! They worked for getting J's HIV test so I'm really counting on them for everything else. Oh, and I only had one copy of the HIV test results so I made my doctor make me a copy before I'd give the results to her. I wasn't about to go through that whole process again.

Happy Friday!